Random Thoughts!

Innocence, How do you get them back? Or does the world take pieces of it on a day to day basis?
What all does life have to offer you? Why is there so much joy in bringing a newborn baby into this cruel world? Are we a Jealous and Selfish people or do we just want that one person that will love you back and ask no questions or just have NO conditions?

This is what I thought about today.. Too much and too long! Filled with every memory that my mind can gather up from my childhood. I thought about when I was a cheerleader and my skirt did not fit and my mom tried to gather it around the waist and when I went to do a flip my skirt wrapped around my legs and all I could do was try to hold my flip until she made it out there to get me.

I thought about all the times I had fallen down, only to see my dad walking to wherever I was and holding on to me tight to let me know it is alright Nebaby, and tell me, but remember you fell with a lot of class, noone even noticed it, I thought it was dance. I smile he smile and everything felt so much better.

Today I just sit empty infront of my computer with a lot of questions a lot of Answers fill my head yet nothing I can really understand it is all garbled inside these walls I have started to put up again.. I want to fly but Then when I think about it I would rather sleep.. I want to sing and scream to the top of my lungs yet I sit mute.

The days of my life is something that is suppose to go on forever, you know the fun ones, and making new memories and sharing things with my besties and all.. but The days look grim and very far and in between, Sometimes things don't get better they get worse, but you listen to the people around you when they tell you that it will.. (your suppose to laugh right here, because you have said that to someone also) haha!

The problem is.. None of us know when we are going to swallow our last breath or see out last sunset.. But one thing that we should know is when it is all over said and done, when we closed our eyes for the last time to open them NO MORE! DID You at least help one person.. Did you feed the hungry did your clothe the naked or give drink to your brother or sister that was thirsty???

Remember these things.. even tho it is hard to think about death, you need to make sure you are living right, before G-d turns off the light!