Tuesday, November 17, 2009
For as long as I can remember I have always buried things..
When I first started, it was to hide things from my sister, Things she had that I wanted, but Did not receive. Now that I am older I have started hiding my treasures in my heart.
They come in all forms... Emails, Pictures. Some of my greatest treasures have been my friends and my family. I try to hide them deep down in my heart and when someone sends me a voicemail on my phone and I know that it is going to be along time before I get to hear from them again, or if I know I will NEVER hear from them again, I save them.
I listen to every word and savor the moment everytime, even if It is tears, believe it they are happy. One treasure that I will keep forever is the voice mail my daddy had left me one weekend I decided not to come home but stay in my new apartment for the weekend.. I played it today.
Daddy: Nebaby, everytime you go away this long, I smile and I cry at the same time because it is then I realize your growing up! does not mean I like it, but I want you to know I am proud of you. I love you darlin, Daddy.
I have even recorded it to a tape so that I can play it back whenever I can. I have a couple more messages from certain friends that I have saved also. You all are my treasures. I will never let you all go. Even tho we are far away and even it looks like I have moved on with work, friends or anything else. I want you all to know I think about you all everyday..For you all are MY treasures!!
Monday, November 2, 2009
Today was nothing short of horrid. I spend my looking for something that just does not want to be found. I spend my time obsessed over something that seems to run in a different direction that what I am in.
My life is not what I thought it would be, but at the same time I have accomplished a lot of things in this short period of time. When sad instances come, they seem to stay longer than we expect it too. They come in forms of deaths, breakups, and friendships. You have to learn to hold on to the good things.. The friends that stay and help you weather the storm..
I am a true believer that G-d sends some people in your life for a season, and when that season is up they are gone.. When that friendship or relationship ends, Try to see the silver lining and cherish the memories that you made with them.
This season that I am in is going to last a lifetime.... I am going to dance in the rain, go tubing down the hill drenched in snow... I am going to start going back on the roof and lay there and watch the cloud form magical scenes will passing by.
This time I am NOT going to talk I am just going to listen...
Header pic was taken while I was on vacation at Virgina Beach! I love this pic!!
- Reality Check
- Me, Myself & I, Taking a Journey Through life. I put on my heels to make me feel beautiful inside, but the reality is I, myself don't like the skin that I live in. I don't like the softness that I put across sometimes, and I don't like ME! I am going to learn Though or die trying. Someone is not coming out alive! Damn, I think It's ME!